Mother's Day

So as everyone probably knows mothers day is sunday. to avoid the weekend rush my parents and I went on Friday. We ate dinner at the Hibachi Grill. I had sushi, fruit, shrimp friend rice, dumplings, sweet bread and basicly any seafood or asian food. It was really yummy. What is everyone elses plans for mothers day?

Tattoos

Konnichiwa, minna. Today is May 11th and finally the weekend. I'm so glad; school is burning me out and with a month left just want it to be over. But I still ha ve finals so I'll hang in here. Anyway, a few days ago my friend got tattoos. And it really encouraged me to get one. And unlike her mom, my parents are cool with it. So all yesterday I was brainstorming where and what I want to get. I decided on where: my left shoulder and one of my biceps. Considered ankle, but I don't like that much. For the design considering quotes and a bird flying out of a thorny birdcage. That tattoo would symbolize me not letting betrayal get to me and my desire to be free. Although the entire thing may be a bit much so imma think of another smaller one for my arm. For that considering butterflies with roses behind it. But before any of that have to get money. So wish me luck :D        Have some pictures but upload later (if I remember).

'Friends'

Hey everyone. It's almost 11 p.m. where I am on May 8th. Was just up and thinking..And got on the topic of friends who date their friends crush.

Random kinda, but it happened to me. And here is how it went.

So I liked a guy...He was my childhood crush since elementary school. We been in same classes forever.. And for all those years up until 7th grade (so for some years) I never told anyone.

However, I had made a group of friends (us four, A, J, and G). So finally I confided in A, about my one and only crush. She acts all happy for me or whatever, can't quite remember now. Then the next thing I know she is avoiding me and bring my other two good friends with her. And I'm there like DAFUQ is going on O.o Was clueless then. And utterly hurt at being completly exiled like that...I was almost in tears, but I'm not the type to show my emotions like that.

After a while I figure out what was going on, but it happened after I confronted her (was pissed for getting ignored) and the way she told me wasn't even right. She had some stank face on and everything saying how he asked her to the dance and stuff.

My initial reaction was anger. Obviously because of jealousy over him asking her. But because she betrayed me and never even thought of telling me about it before agreeing to anything with him. Shouldn't there be some sort of respect or agreement when you are dealign with such delicate matters with your BFF? However, she didn't even consider me...

And to top it off she would always get mad over the STUPIDEST  shit. Couldn't go a day without her getting upset over something I did. And if anything I wasn't always outright mean, intentinally, and i'm just being bluntly honest.

The end of the situation is that the other two (J and G) ganged up on me too. And they said they wouldn't be my friend if I didn't stop being mad at A. Pretty damn FUCKED up if you asked me. And thinking back I should of held my ground..But it's over now and for some reason I still talk to A and J. G goes to another highschool so I don't talk to her much.

TBH I'm not sure if they were ever my friends. Apparently I was just that person who just showed up whenever they mentioned how we first met anyway...And no one told me much..

But it's over now..can't change the past...And maybe I should quit talking with A (she mentions crush occasionally...7th grade dance didn't go well...and now they have some complicated almost relationship shit going on). However I just grin and talk with her...I'm not sure why..But at least going to my highschool gave me the chance to meet different awesome people :) I have friends beside them that I enjoy hanging with. I don't have many friends liek others, but I have the few that really matter and make my day happier...

Sorry. Rant, but wanted to get that off my chest...It's always nagging at me and  I try to ignore all the bad shit that happens to me (and there is a lot) but it gets difficult. If you read this thanks for reading. And if you are any people I know personally reading this. Get mad at me, pity, or whatever, but this is in the past. I want to leave it down with. Leave it here and don't bring it to school.

Iron Man 3

So today is May 7th. Today is my Ma's 49th birthday :) So here's a shout out to you. Love you mom.

Also, today I went on a trip. Went to the movies and saw Iron Man 3. I think this one was the best one out of all 3!! I missed the last scene in the credits though. A little upset about that, but otherwise the movie was amazing loved everything. And there were a lot of twists and excitement at every point. The kid helping Tony was so cute. I died when Tony responded to the kid's sad little outbursts. Maybe I should of expected it, but wow lol. I was shocked, but it was funny. Also, founding out the mandarin wasn't the true evil one was like WFT and wow..The villian was pretty smart in this movie. The true villian works behind the scenes. Also loved how the female lead, Pepper, isn't a damsel in distress in the end and fights to beat up the villian guy. Took me by surprise to see her fight!! And the whole anxiety from the Avengers. Didn't expect that movie to be referenced. I know there are both marvel, but wow... The marvel movies really connect O.O

In other news found out about some movies coming out. Movies previewed were:

• Lone Ranger with Johnny Depp
• White House Down with Channing Tatumn and Jamie Foxx
• Star Trek
• Thor 2
• Wolverine

I'm excited for Thor 2 and Wolverine. I was totally excited for Wolverine especially :D It's SET IN JAPAN. HELL YEAH!!!

Let's Learn Japanese: Greetings

Let's Learn Japanese: Greetings: ohayou おはよう  /     arigatou ありがとう　: Ohayou is used between friends and family members while ohayoo gozaimasu is used   between less...

Lastest Animes

Started watching SAO finally. In case you don't know that's Sword Art Online. On episode 13 in two days, maybe more like one. I'm like addicted. It got kinda flat with how peaceful it gets at times, but it's an amazing show. It has the best first episode I've seen ever. Such intense feelings and emotions. I've already cried like EVERY episode.

After the episode with Lizbeth I shipped Liz x Kirito. But it's obviously Asuna x Kirito. But I'll let my ship stay in my heart even though it will never come true. Picture contains Asuna and Kirito. Make sure to comment please :)

Parents

I don't like mine much. I may forget about what they do to me and be all happy. Or it may be how teens overreact but my parents are unfair and ridiculously unintelligent and irresponsible.

My mom is always yelling and has no control over her spending habits. It's sad how all the money she earns is gone after a few days. She gets paid monthly mind you. She spends all her money on food she doesn't need to buy (fast food). She is loud and talks about me like I can't hear her. I can. She cusses at me and says some really mean things. Just a few days ago she told me I'm not worth anything. Then if I try confronting her and she gets defensive saying it's my fault she acts that way.

As for my dad he is a pain. He goes from messing with me and joking around to an utter douche. He usually doesn't even get between my mom and I because HE DOESN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT. He scares me the most probably. Reason being he could really hurt me. Once I was crying (not sure why) and all he did was yell at me to shut the hell up and there is no reason to cry.

Together they are even worse as they gang up on me. I have no room to defend myself as when one stops the other starts. Plus they support each other. Apparently I'm disrespectful and I talk back. In all honesty, I just react based on the way they treat me. If you treat me wrong, I WILL SAY SOMETHING. And I don't back talk (intentionally/usually) I just defend myself.

Today, my mom asked me about some footprint on the wall. I told her that my dad had killed a bug with a shoe. I really believed that is what happened. But she retorts saying my dad said it wasn't him. And she took his side and my dad resorted to utter douche mood and accused me of lying. I replied saying if what I said didn't happen then I'm not lying intentionally. I just replied with what I thought happened. But now I'm a liar and my reply was talking back. So after that my parents got quiet with the occasional OBNOXIOUSLY LOUD comments about me.

I have to wonder if all parents act like this or is it just mine... I'm not sure how much more I can handle of this.

AnimeNEXT

I'm an anime fan as I mentioned in previous entries. And I may not be die hard but I do love it enough to want to attend a convention. I'm in New Jersey so honestly, everything is pretty limited compared to the west coast. However, there is one happening this year called AnimeNEXT in Somerset NJ. I'm so excited to go. My mom hasn't changed her mind on me about going either so my hope is burning strong. ^_^

Link: http://www.animenext.org/

Just recently they added a new attendee for the events. There is a group called Baby, The Stars Shine Bright are going to be there. Never heard of them but looked into it and they are a lolita fashion group. I love frills so I'm super excited to see such fashion in real life. Also Greg Ayres and Chris Cason will attend. They are english voice actors that have voiced in animes I adore such as:

• Deadman Wonderland
• Chrono Crusade
• FMA: Full Metal Alchemist
• Soul Eater
• School Rumble
• Ouran High School Host Club and many more!

I wanted to cosplay, but I didn't have enough time to do it. Next year I hope I can go again and dress as Celty from Durarara! I looked up a really simple way to get all her accessories :)
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Below are some pictures for BSSB, antonym for the lolita group for con:

Here are some of the animes I mentioned. The Blue picture is from Chrono Crusade, the other two from Deadman Wonderland (Deadman Wonderland isn't complete and until recently was on haitus due to author's pregnancy):

 Here are some cosplays (these are examples of epic ones from various animes):

Watermelon

So there are lots of stereotypes and today I'm going to tackle the one referring to black people and watermelon.

TBH, I NEVER understood this stereotype. First time I heard it I was like: DAFUQ?? What do black people and watermelon have to do with each other. So today I finally decided to search it up and discovered some history behind it.

Way back when the southern poor people ate watermelon (as well as chitlins *yes, pig intestines) because they were the cheap food that everyone could afford. Now when I say poor southerns I refer to black and white. However, for some reason everyone paid a lot more attention to black people when they bought watermelon and it became a stereotype. Kinda weird, but at least this is one of the more positive/not negative/slandering stereotypes about black people.

Caption: I believe this is Katy Perry in picture.

Discrimination: One Size Fits All

I'm one of those people that things of a controversial question and then search it up on yahoo to see what others think. And one thing I've noticed is that my questions are rather discriminating and just trying to make myself feel better. However, it shouldn't be like that. Especially, in the minds of Americans where we are suppose to be free and equal. So right now I want to tackle some of those issues while they are still in my head. To begin, I'll start with how One Size Fits All.

One Size Fits All

So one thing that I've searched up is about skinny and curvy girls. There is always this discrimination among girls (and guys) and it's rather disheartening for both sides of the spectrum. Skinny girls are berated for looking too skinny and are made fun of with terms such as anorexic or sickly. However, they really not. They are perfectly healthy for their body type and shouldn't be hated on for it. As for curvy girls they are berated with terms like fat and thunder thighs. However, they are perfectly fine and some girls can't help being a little more curvy with thighs, bosom, and glutinous maximums (buttocks). It is all in their genes and you can't change them or choose all your features out. Everyone has to live with it and try their best to love themselves. And anyway, skinny or curvy it doesn't matter as ONE SIZE FITS ALL.

As proven in the pictures above. No matter what size you are you can look equally as beautiful in any outfit.

Warning: Yes some people are truly anorexia or "fat" (for lack of better wording), but I am talking about those in between average people like you and me.  Also, someone may prefer skinny over curvy, but it is a preference and everyone is entitled to preferences.

About Me

You can probably see my 'About Me' section to your right. However, I want to go into more detail about myself. So to begin I am 15th and born on December 4th, 1997. I'm a winter baby and lovin' it (McDonalds, lol). I am still trying to figure myself out and can be contradicting.

My best subject is math and I adore anime/manga and anything Asian. I've gotten into K-pop more after the MNET station was established on Comcast. I like China too. Although I don't know much about it. To be honest, I want to travel someday all over the world.

I practically hate anything physical like sports and I'm lazy and almost unmotivated at times as well. The moodiness that can over take me is frighting. But even through it all I try my best to be optimistic. And well, that's it for now. If there is more about me I guess you can read between the lines in my entries.

Intro

Konnichiwa, minna! ("Hello, everyone!" in Japanese) Today is May 6th of 2013. My name is Frances Charlotte Dixon. I'm a freshmen in southern Jersey and just your average girl. My nickname, and preferred title, is Frankie. You can call me that or something similar if you like. :)

So anyway, I created this blog as a memoir (not sure if I used the word in the correct context). I want to use my blog to organize my thoughts and have a place where my memories can be stored. I think a lot and I want to be able to remember what all those great ideas were. So with this blog I'll try and write about all the things that pop into my mind. Please don't count on my doing this all the time though as I can be pretty unmotivated and lazy and may forget about this entire thing by tomorrow. But for now, here I am. I will enjoy sharing my thoughts with you all. ^_^